04/20/2024 "No Lives Matter" D# B F# C# Verse 1: Yeah, I wake up feeling the dread Turning my head Wish I was dead Up on my knees Turned on the TV I cannot believe what the horrors I see From ISIS to the Presidential Thesis All these murdering sprees Blocked up highways Polluted skyways Build up these walls Watching school kids bleed Plant these seeds of misdeeds Bury the hypocrisy Take control Kill the soul They don’t know truth untold Praise to God to what we believe Aim the guns into the mouths we feed Destroy the spirit from within Kill the love, so hate begins Chorus: It is hard to believe that we enter World War III Into the sun when we're done This world of ours is all but one London bridge is falling down, Falling down Statue of Liberty is crashing down Ashes, ashes, We all fall down We all fall down Verse 2: Priests’ rapin’ The mind is vapin’ Divided nations, Fake News persuasions, Racial segregation, A fucked up generation History written For a white American Class ambitions Getting fed by the Media Hungry like a pedophilia Stuff our faces with all the Micky D’s Money don’t grow on trees So we cheat and divorce These systems which raised us into victims Riding the penises of the Harvey Weinsteins Hooked up and choked up on the Po-po-po Who killed Philando Castille? We don’t know The stock market crash and oil pipeline spills with drones we killed Hook: Rockets, rockets, Hear the sound! No integration into immigration Poverty stricken, sex addictions It is American History X, Malcolm X, The bigoted side effects The voice of the voiceless With throats parched of H20 Polar Bears and Penguins dying on the Arctic coast I know Verse 3: So many lies and lives lost to suicide Cause there so depressed and upset With the health care systems we just don’t get And still got no more money to pay all these college bills Only addicted to our devices and cheap thrills Too much political jargon from the left and right I think the end of us is in sight And another thing? What about Jacob Wetterling? Should we kill all murderers and rapists and cut off their dingalings All the sex, the biggest dick in Hollywood, the lies they cry, Yet how can one not abide? Stereotypes, is all a cry Chorus: Global warming, pipeline storming, whales mourning, nations warring, people whoring, computers sporing, banks controlling, society ignoring Sex addiction, masturbation, racism, mysogny, rioting, no deciding, devistation, frustration Allegations, fighting nations Killing ourselves like celebrities Corona, should of warned ya Cali burning, world turning Digging our graves, can't be saved Popping meds, going insane Looking for fame, lost in shame No more hope, just play the game

5/13/2023 "A Testament to Insanity" Fm Eb Db Eb Verse 1: I am not impressed with how I dress myself on a platter I am not so normal And times I act Like a mad hatter that has been battered to long with bipolar disorder I border on being sorted out and mostly the later Unintentionally insane with not such a good mind frame Too much negativity flows within my veins I swear I'm insane I know with time I can mend my soul and eat the sadness whole But the psychiatrist cannot mend this wound I want it gone by noon It is true that I am blue Who knew that pain ensues? I know life is a we not about me But I just don't feel free And cannot escape drowning in the sea Chorus: It is a lot of work to sort out the hurt that rest in my mind There is some signs of a better line instead of dining on despair that takes all my air I have a hard time swaying the pain away So, at times I just bask in which I lay with a frown Bound not found and so, I sunk and drown Verse 2: I often get lewd in the nude Often booed for being a dude that empties his laundry on social media The wall is filled with appalling posts But you have no idea how I want someone to free ya instead of seeing you bleed ya? I tack this paper or note on the wall I call to my spirit to stand tall Instead of balling and gnawing on my gums till they bleed Though I tried to train my thoughts to think healthily not rot into sadness or madness unforgotten I just end up whining my problems away constantly complain to keep the bad thoughts at bay I feel shot and out of control So, behold this sham I scam myself full of junk So much in a trunk Chorus: It is a lot of work to sort out the hurt that rest in my mind There is some signs of a better line instead of dining on despair that takes all my air I have a hard time swaying the pain away So, at times I just bask in which I lay with a frown Bound not found and so, I sunk and drown Verse 3: It is with a lock and no key I am on my knees asking to be free I get queasy and needy Especially when I cannot save me from the mental illness I want that to be still or permanently gone It isn't wrong to wish this upon my soul Can you read this dictionary I literally been on 30 meds and the doc gives up Saying I need to get static electricity to reset me up But it isn't enough and is a long drive to get well from hell I don’t want a 45 minute appointment cause it will just take all of my energy I just want a med to save me Instead of relying on something that will take forever to get done Just give me my med so, I can put this disorder and make it done Chorus: It is a lot of work to sort out the hurt that rest in my mind There is some signs of a better line instead of dining on despair that takes all my air I have a hard time swaying the pain away So, at times I just bask in which I lay with a frown Bound not found and so, I sunk and drown

05/17/2023 "A Letter of Hope" Gm Eb Bb F Verse 1: I had bipolar for 14 years Things are often dark and not so clear It is like you have been stuck in the mud swallowed whole where you can't move or nudge your way out No matter how loud you shout No one hears you You act like a fool Screaming at the top of your lungs But pain ensues It really is painful sometimes When you are lonely and caught in a vice Things aren't nice But here is my advice No matter how chaotic your life gets No matter how wretched and angry you are, and when things don't let Try to have faith Don't break and don't get to upset Hey Chorus: You can't breathe and sometimes you scream You lose faith and you plea But you will see that you'll be free If you have hope and believe Verse 2: I was there, wanted to hang by a rope But my dad caught me and just said nope So, I wrote this rap and it's my hope Truth is these things don’t show the best of myself For the most part I still struggle and feel like I call for help Having 8 hospitalizations I have had many frustrations So many elations suicidal ideations I cannot seem to figure it out I have tried 30 meds and in the end, they did help but only for so long The psyche says I need static electricity to the brain To help me from going insane However, just play the game say Chorus: You can't breathe and sometimes you scream You lose faith and you plea But you will see that you'll be free If you have hope and believe Verse 3: I am clearly uninspired and sadness is on the wire I am always tired my feelings mired However, I wrote this poem I just want this to be known You are often shot cold and getting old Everywhere you turn you feel low I know you will fall down You will do it round by round But you got to have hope and say you can cope And try to look up maybe there is a god Pain is like a lightning rod that can shock the system But hope can alleviate depressing symptoms Don't play victim Just try too winsome Here is today Control your breath Say ay oh kay Yay Chorus: You can't breathe and sometimes you scream You lose faith and you plea But you will see that you'll be free If you have hope and believe

11/26/2020 "Left Forgotten" Em C D Em Verse 1: I am hurting inside Why am I alive? I can't explain all this pain I feel sad and down I am lost not found Dreading the night While I'm blind in sight Unable to mask the sorrow I wish there is no tomorrow Can you see the burden? Can you feel uncertain? Crawling in such misery You are not free Loneliness bites your soul You forgot this hole that buries in full Where is your destiny? You are the one and only That is left forgotten Always rotten I ask forgiveness I ask for my savior I ask for enlightenment My best behavior Do you understand my desires? Or is it something you admire? I don't believe You are such a liar Chorus: Free from guilt Free from shame Free from slavery of being insane There is no freedom When you bask in hell You want to yell Free yourself from spells Wishes that can't be granted For your gifts are just so slanted Together you ask for the spirit But alone you always seem to fear it Follow this Verse 2: There is a liar I admire Once believed I'm the dream See in me lost at sea Do not breathe Ache for you I am blue In remorse And unkind I'm divorced Deck of cards It is dark So just wait Call me in drown in sin Bastard in the makin' Am so shakin' Wallows fear Swallow tears Want to steer the only mirror Tell to me It's the end It's your life Cannot mend Tell to you I am freezin' Inside I am wheezin' In a meetin' I am fleetin' It is sleetin' from the cold It's myself getting old Frost bit Head to toe Blinded Deafness Oh, no It was a dark day A okay Do you see I am Not that way Chorus: Free from guilt Free from shame Free from slavery of being insane There is no freedom When you bask in hell You want to yell Free yourself from spells Wishes that can't be granted For your gifts are just so slanted Together you ask for the spirit But alone you always seem to fear it Follow this Hook: Why can't I get over this depression The guilty is in session Poke fun at me for failure For that I shall not return Play with words Here I concur Say no to the mental illness I am not sure how to win this Step 1 and two I know how to tie my shoes But here I recall I am still blue Lay in the darkness Or crawl into the light Here I scream With all of my might Back in the day I was so pristine May be even a bit mean With no self esteem I dream Amongst the sheep I hear you creep Do not lead them in your sleep Promise me that you will scream when the fallen start to redeem I contemplate my life Why am I alive Why can't I Just die? Is it wrong to be sick in the head? I have this dread that I wish I was dead I am miserable unable to think it out loud Pacing and wasting away Here I am, alive 'but dead inside I say It is not eerie That I feel so dreary I am an outcast Mindless at best I carry this burden upon my chest Life isn't okay I just waste away I stare into space Or I endlessly pace So conserve your energy And sleep it all away It is okay that you aren't black or white but only gray Why am I alive? I just don't know I am dead inside There is nothing there Tomorrow is another day I am sure it will be a okay But this is all I got to say End the pain Feeling insane There is a hole in my heart Whether you are near or far apart Is this god's test to be my very best I stare into space and blank out I just don't care to do anything else Verse 3: Draw a knife Pull the trigger See a gap Wounds are bigger It's mountains Escapes sky Seem to cry I ain't right Obsessed in bone Forth the light Cannot own Trapped mania Sapped depression Sanity Work in session Worth to mention Lost ascension Your attention In detention Into the time of lies Oh why Do not say goodbye I cry Sick to the bone In my home Into the unknown I’m alone I am thrilled For the ill Chilled inside From the pill Stick to the song Sing it strong Not in wrong Dejected and gone In my hell Under a spell I do yell Im not well Theres no time You are mine I do whine For were bind Chorus: Free from guilt Free from shame Free from slavery of being insane There is no freedom When you bask in hell You want to yell Free yourself from spells Wishes that can't be granted For your gifts are just so slanted Together you ask for the spirit But alone you always seem to fear it Follow this

3/9/2024 "Dedication" F C# G# D# Verse: I have made a decision to change my life Work so hard and set my life right I hope to bring passion to the table and enable this story and remove the fables I have turned the tides to deliver good news found my God now I'm true I believe in my gifts I admit My life is shifting I'm making a rift I'm moving away from negativity that left me a jarred to set myself free I have depression But doing my best Life's a session I'm acing the test Chorus: There are times that I fall I crash and burn and hit the wall I break to pieces and lose all hope to the point where I cannot cope But something inside keeps me alive I keep my faith and that I fight So that’s a test and you will see I'll follow my dreams and will succeed Verse 2: It is worth to mention that I will find my place Once I reach ascension I will win the race Once I reach my goals The truth be told I will have no limits Before I get old Now is the time to show you what I got I've delt the cards It is worth a shot Now it's time to put down the knife In spite the strife I will reach new heights I won't think twice to do any less It is time to forget all the rest It is time to aspire for inspiration Through dedication and perspiration Chorus: There are times that I fall I crash and burn and hit the wall I break to pieces and lose all hope to the point where I cannot cope But something inside keeps me alive I keep my faith and that I fight So that’s a test and you will see I'll follow my dreams and will succeed Verse 3: I may fall down But I got to say Time to move mountains in any which way I have my frustrations but in spite all my elations time to set it right I know I am tired of feeling down But I will turn this frown right around So just put a smile upon my face Tie my shoes move not waste There will be days in which I derail but sooner than not I will tip the scales I will set my mark and aim it high Shoot it center at the bullseye Chorus: There are times that I fall I crash and burn and hit the wall I break to pieces and lose all hope to the point where I cannot cope But something inside keeps me alive I keep my faith and that I fight So that’s a test and you will see I'll follow my dreams and will succeed Verse 4: My destiny is right in front of me So, hear my prayers while on my knees I won't hold my breath I will succeed Cause I have a Cree and I now believe My bipolar it's a disease but now in order I can dream I have my pain I have my shame But I won't hide Till I find my fame With some luck I will collect the lottery It will ease my mind for that I achieved The homing missile is locked on target I bet this game My mate is checked Chorus: There are times that I fall I crash and burn and hit the wall I break to pieces and lose all hope to the point where I cannot cope But something inside keeps me alive I keep my faith and that I fight So thats a test and you will see I'll follow my dreams and will succeed

02/28/2024 "Wake Up" Cm Ab Bb G Verse 1: Wake up and tell me I am okay I am tired of failing I need a new way There is a new time that I am dealing with I am depressed because I have not found success I drown in my pain and my sorrow I am in vain I have no power I pour my soul there is no hope and no reason to live I cannot cope Chorus: I want to sleep the rest of my life I no longer exist so, give me the knife I just see red every single day I am bloodshot so, kill me today Will you tell me that I am right Or will you shoot me and leave me in site I know you will always lie so, I will tell you these goodbyes Verse 2: I am stuck feeling shifty and pain I cannot rid in me How do I pull this thing off I cannot breathe Life's too tough It isn't true it's my destiny I am crying for that I bleed Please send me a sign that I will die I am tired of feeling down I sigh Chorus: I want to sleep the rest of my life I no longer exist so, give me the knife I just see red every single day I am bloodshot so, kill me today Will you tell me that I'm right Or will you shoot me and leave in site I know you will always lie so, I will tell you these goodbyes Verse 3: Go to sleep and drown in your sins You are going to give up and die within I am upset and cannot win There is only shame for that I sinned So, take this rope and use this gun Pull it tight and shoot me now I close my eyes and see reality I am still alive so that I see Chorus: I want to sleep the rest of my life I no longer exist so, give me the knife I just see red every single day I am bloodshot so, kill me today Will you tell me that I'm right Or will you shoot me and leave in site I know you will always lie so, I will tell you these goodbyes

03/02/2024 "Greatness" Ab E B Gb Verse 1: There's a time in which I lost my mind But then inclined I found a sign It said turn your cheek and hit the road You were so sad time to live aboad Can you have your faith and believe in god? Or will you sulk and live so fod? No matter what you will fall down You may fall hard that you'll scream so loud But I say this just get back up and give it your best and just be tough Truth be told I swore, yo Chorus: I have my back against the wall But I believe that if I stand tall I will find my place cause I believe I've got my dreams its history Verse 2: I have bipolar it's diseased but I won't let that even try to stop me There are many highs and there are many lows But I do know that I still got to go I just gotta keep on and never give up I'll keep on trucking, and find some luck What do I do to eliminate the pain? Do I give it up and live in vain? Or do I keep believing in myself? and ask god for giving me some help? Remember me I am free Chorus: I have my back against the wall But I believe that if I stand tall I will find my place cause I believe I've got my dreams its history Verse 3: I will be great and find my place Don't you see I will win the race I've walked the line But I see the sign I may behind But I know I'm fine I see my past and I lived in vain I had my demons and I had my pain If I see my present with a good outlook I do know that hell has shook No more will I die today in my future I will bathe So, I have my life's success, I will lay Chorus: I have my back against the wall But I believe that if I stand tall I will find my place cause I believe I've got my dreams its history

4/13/2024 "Psychosis" G Eb C D Verse 1: No matter how long I swim upwards I am still stuck to the bottom So I might as well sufficate Its too late I rather just be forgotten I wish myself good luck to tamper this ruckus Tuck myself in a u shape while I'm boiling in succus I am always weeping for such a long time I'm prone to psychosis I am really not doing fine I don't do drugs but I do like my meds Push them down my throat Better than shooting myself with lead I'm in my bed Full of dread better of dead But here I'm alive instead Can you end this I said Chorus: Oh well, at least I accept myself I just don't really care everybody got their problems everybody got their truth they bare But my trauma is so big that I cannot help from loathing So jot this down instead of doting or gloating They're are real bad Some upset my brother But try not to bother theses fakes news cause we know it isn't always true So my close friends don't put your policies on me Don't run my life Don't ask me please Verse 2: I often do appointments remotely cause sooner or later the psychiatirst will show me that I am just stupid for not shocking my brain Using static electricty to change my mind frame All I ask god is to remove the shackles so I can break free instead of feeling tackled The rumors are true that I am not normal I am so different and not so formal So draw these tears upon my face lace me up and tie my waist Cover my body and let me bake While I wait for my fate Instigate while I begin to break I say Chorus: Oh well, at least I accept myself I just don't really care everybody got their problems everybody got their truth they bare But my trauma is so big that I cannot help from loathing So jot this down instead of doting or gloating They're are real bad Some upset my brother But try not to bother theses fakes news cause we know it isn't always true So my close friends don't put your policies on me Don't run my life Don't ask me please Verse 3: I hope it will show something better in sight on all of my wrong doings I am certain that sooner than not that the feelings will stop hurting So I end this in a few words You have already heard how much I told my story I just emphasis to much of the weaknesses that's the allegory However maybe with a enough of it I will be so sick and tired that I will see my current tide change Their will be light through the window pane The sun will come and set things right at night So use this might and fight for what is right I end this poem now I say my thoughts I bow Chorus: Oh well, at least I accept myself I just don't really care everybody got their problems everybody got their truth they bare But my trauma is so big that I cannot help from loathing So jot this down instead of doting or gloating They're are real bad Some upset my brother But try not to bother theses fakes news cause we know it isn't always true So my close friends don't put your policies on me Don't run my life Don't ask me please

3/15/2021 "Six Feet Below" Abm E Gb Eb Verse 1: I hate that you bring me down Will you break me accordingly to the very next round No more shame No more pain Scream my name Let it rain Poor your torment into me And watch me bleed I am empty inside Why am I alive? into me Chorus: I am buried six feet below Without my breath, I would know Dig into the graveyard of my life Kill me now It is so damn right Where are you? Why are you gone? You left me alone Where have I gone wrong? Verse 2: Time will tell Release me from my hell It is my fate I cannot wait I will die tomorrow It’s the end of my sorrows In my darkest day Misery lays In this hell I do yell From the top of my lungs Can you hear me? I do cry Chorus: I am buried six feet below Without my breath, I would know Dig into the graveyard of my life Kill me now It is so damn right Where are you? Why are you gone? You left me alone Where have I gone wrong? Hook: I am screaming for your time Do you see the sign? I undo my mind Unwind with regret To fret and to let Out the darkness in sight Where is the light? Am I right that You fight the pain While your blood is in vain It stains your skin From within There is your sin The day after today Is the hell of tomorrow You bring me death and the ultimate sorrow Devour feast And to eat Chorus [x3]: I am buried six feet below Without my breath, I would know Dig into the graveyard of my life Kill me now It is so damn right Where are you? Why are you gone? You left me alone Where have I gone wrong?

4/12/2024 "Devastation" Bbm Ab Gb A Verse 1: In this lackluster life I am under the knife cause I cannot make a decision while I wait in strife I am just sick in the end wish I was dead and rather end it in dread I just don't care anymore life is just a chore and I am a little too bored I am caught in a chokehold and I cannot escape No matter what I do it is too late my mate Chorus: I am in pain and a little insane I am feeling sad Why is it driving me mad I wish God could drive away my tears send away my fears and end it all here So now is the time to walk the line I am not fine Will you hear me now? Can you hear me shout? My heart is pouring out I am tired of living I'm shifting in doubt Verse 2: I ask for assistance but no one can help me No matter what I am a slave and never free I am wasting away and facing destruction I am laced with anger with anxiety in conjunction Can you rid this pain that lies within myself I forbid you to wait Please do tell Little do you know that I am so unstable, mentally ill disabled Chorus: I am in pain and a little insane I am feeling sad Why is it driving me mad I wish God could drive away my tears send away my fears and end it all here So now is the time to walk the line I am not fine Will you hear me now? Can you hear me shout? My heart is pouring out I am tired of living I'm shifting in doubt I pout Verse 3: I am labeled bipolar and I am sick in the head My mind is messed up My body has bled Pull the trigger and make it quicker The plot gets thicker the more I get sicker There is a testament to hopelessness and despair I can no longer rest for I cannot breathe any air I live without love Life really is too tough Chorus: I am in pain and a little insane I am feeling sad Why is it driving me mad I wish God could drive away my tears send away my fears and end it all here So now is the time to walk the line I am not fine Will you hear me now? Can you hear me shout? My heart is pouring out I am tired of living I'm shifting in doubt

3/28/2020 "Wasting Away" A B C C A B A A Verse 1: Amongst the sheep I hear you creep Do not lead them in your sleep I want to scream when the fallen still redeems Contemplate life Why am I alive? I just can't die Is it wrong to be sick in the head? Have this dread Wish I was dead I am miserable Thinkin' out loud Pacing and wasting away Here I am, alive but dead inside I say It's not eerie I feel so weary Chorus: Carry this burden It's upon my chest Life's not okay So, I am wasting away I stare into space Or I endlessly pace So, bare your energy and sleep it all away It is okay that you aren't black or white but only gray Why am I alive? I just don't know I am dead inside There is nothing there Tomorrow is another day Verse 2: Sure, it will be a okay This is all I got to say End the pain Feeling insane Blankin' out Just don't care You are near I want to wear Cornered to a space in the wall Stare at it forever till you stop it all I love it at the worst when I just don't care I wait for it nah, I begin to bear Day in, day out I work out all day There I nothing to live for I am in my ways Chorus: Carry this burden It's upon my chest Life's not okay So, I am wasting away I stare into space Or I endlessly pace So, bare your energy and sleep it all away It is okay that you aren't black or white but only gray Why am I alive? I just don't know I am dead inside There is nothing there Tomorrow is another day Hook: Cry myself to sleep every night because I am always sad There is only pain in sight Screaming God why can’t you hear me now I am just wondering I have no meaning, how? Here I am Stuck again Lost inside All but lies I cry today A okay Things aren’t right Down outright It is so lame There is no reign There is only shame Verse 3: Not in a sight It's not right Lost my mind Do my time With my rhymes Drown in sin From within There’s no hope Cannot cope Cannot elope For that I spoke No to pain Let it rain All these stains Cannot name It is so lame Got the game I am shamed From all the guilt In my filth It is a burning desire To let you go But deep down Here is my frown Chorus: Carry this burden It's upon my chest Life's not okay So, I am wasting away I stare into space Or I endlessly pace So, bare your energy and sleep it all away It is okay that you aren't black or white but only gray Why am I alive? I just don't know I am dead inside There is nothing there Tomorrow is another day Ending: Break into Your mind and body Else I will get trapped And end up rotting Does it ring a bell? Or are you tone deaf? In my home I am here, Just always alone

03/31/2024 "Vice" Cm B A Cm Verse 1: I have not won the battle of life I feel restricted I'm caught in a vice I am under the knife for the rest of my life My life is so black with no help in sight I've been on a med for seven plus years but in the end it's gone defective I sear There are days in which I cannot rest and then there are nights where I sleep more than less Chorus: I know I am a loser, man but I am ticking in an hourglass I am about to call it quits and I can no longer last All of the things I must do are getting harder to beat even while I walk it is such a huge feat I must meet Verse 2: I say my business is no longer finished But as I prolong this battle I can no longer win this illness I spit and spat crawling like a rat waiting to parish while in a trapped I want to be spared but I know life is not fair I am no predator but a prey I swear I can't bare Chorus: I know I am a loser, man but I am ticking in an hourglass I am about to call it quits and I can no longer last All of the things I must do are getting harder to beat even while I walk it is such a huge feat I must meet Verse 3: I aint always neat sometimes I feel homeless while on the street My body is stained with blood It smells and reaks of barebones and little meat The vultures are picking at the scraps of my body The pirahanas are swimming while I'm rotting I am anchored to the floor and I cannot swim oh lord Can you save me from my insanity Chorus: I know I am a loser, man but I am ticking in an hourglass I am about to call it quits and I can no longer last All of the things I must do are getting harder to beat even while I walk it is such a huge feat I must meet Verse 4: My fate is already set and I know I am damned as I will always be wretched So catch me while you can while I walk the line as I lose my mind I am just a prisoner in a cell I am swarming in my thoughts while I bake in a hell I am always skating on thin ice and I am filled with gasoline while I lose my self esteem Chorus: I know I am a loser, man but I am ticking in an hourglass I am about to call it quits and I can no longer last All of the things I must do are getting harder to beat even while I walk it is such a huge feat I must meet

02/25/2024 "Shards of Thorns" Em D C D Verse 1: Depressed for all the right reasons Unrest escapes from treason I am decaying in my mind It draws the line while in hell I can no longer find myself I unwind I testify to this predicament that I will die from being spent caused by this painful disorder I am sickened and spent It is pure mis order It rises within myself It's a wall of depression As it takes its ascension from my soul I wish for a way out of this hellhole It scribes the uncanny scenario of detrimental divisiveness I am stuck demented from this torment that breathes It is so relentless I cannot repent this I hope that there will be relief from this depressing list Chorus: Hey God, can you bring me peace? And send away this misery So, I can set myself free, you see I am tired of the pain inside I can no longer hide from the damage that brings me to die Don't lie, I know you cry cause you know in spite that there is no hope just tell me I'm right I believe when I lie I can sleep tonight and just rest my eyes and no longer do I fight Verse 2: It chokes me dry I cannot find my alibi I attest, time will tell when I hit the sky I find a plan to reveal the pain to eliminate the stress in vain The reason is sufficient but deadly as I remorsefully regret what is said to me It envelops me from where I am heading Wait a minute and tell me it is not the cause I know there will be consequences when I drive myself into the wall Where I crash and burn breaking my very bones and brain to tell it all that I just could not live no more and rather delt the joker card It was left out of the deck and no longer in the game meant to die and leave restrained It's an ace in the hole as the deuce strikes 3 He is out from breaking such causality Just let him die and watch him bleed do you see Chorus: Hey God, can you bring me peace? And send away this misery So, I can set myself free, you see I am tired of the pain inside I can no longer hide from the damage that brings me to die Don't lie, I know you cry cause you know in spite that there is no hope just tell me I'm right I believe when I lie I can sleep tonight and just rest my eyes and no longer do I fight Verse 3: The looking glass stems a shattered rose as the pedals share shards of thorns so thick it stings the skin and blisters with sores There is no beauty within the beast you are dead inside and for that you shall weep Life is a memory in this chaos called life It does creeps We all are born and will die living this lie God, I ask are you there? I am tired of feeling down from all of this despair So, send me a sign that will provide me some peace before the ghost of evil bears witness to my spiritual pressure unleashed Let me die a painless death and put me to rest one last single breath Goodbye I say and I hope you do hear me that I done my best I just wish you'd reward me, I say But for now, what is done is done No more ink anyway Chorus: Hey God, can you bring me peace? And send away this misery So, I can set myself free, you see I am tired of the pain inside I can no longer hide from the damage that brings me to die Don't lie, I know you cry cause you know in spite that there is no hope just tell me I'm right I believe when I lie I can sleep tonight and just rest my eyes and no longer do I fight

3/4/2024 "Dear Agony" Am F G E Verse 1: Dear agony I ask God can you save me from my total misery? I am caught in life and I cannot breathe I am choking on devastation and hell, I see I lost my heart from divine intervention I tried to climb the ladder to reach ascension But I fell down and broke my crown Tumbling right into the ground I fell so hard that I cracked my skull And now my life is forever dull I tried to change myself for the best but these days I often regress Chorus: There is no way out I am shackled My heart is pouring out So, I know that is why I shout There is only pain For that I'm insane Will you follow me to the end of time I need your shine So why did you leave me to pieces I am lost It ceases Verse 2: I drive myself mad on a daily basis because I am sapped from a dwindling oasis I regret this so much that I lost hope So that is my reasoning on why I cannot cope Can you finally tell me that I will find success than the reason to incline that I failed the test There is a 1,000 ways to die and here I ask for an alibi for why I am still alive I want to cry my life away and maybe devour me I say today Chorus: There is no way out I am shackled My heart is pouring out So, I know that is why I shout There is only pain For that I'm insane Will you follow me to the end of time I need your shine So why did you leave me to pieces I am lost It ceases Verse 3: Time to sleep in pain while you deem in vain I claim the right to sin for that I am lost within Get a job and just live in a cog Become a sheep while misery creeps Sleeping has become such a nightmare for hell is here so, beware I swear What is the best way to wallow in tears? I bet you cannot find out I sear Listen and hear to your lord before you end it cause you are bored There is a looking glass that you must see Cause inside of it bleeds Chorus: There is no way out I am shackled My heart is pouring out So, I know that is why I shout There is only pain For that I'm insane Will you follow me to the end of time I need your shine So why did you leave me to pieces I am lost It ceases

3/24/2024 "My Shooting Star" F D Bb C Verse 1: I ache for you and I cannot let you go Will you be with me forever so I believe in a miracle and that is you You are the brighest bulb and that is true I cannot forget how pretty you are You are the light You are my shooting star You came to me in a dream You bring me up Your my self esteem Chorus: You lift me up when I fall down You're so beautiful You are my doll I want to hold you, kiss you and never let you go I need you so I just know Verse 2: Time will tell when I will let you know Sooner or later You make me feel whole I call for you from a mile away Do not leave me I ask you to stay Let's be together forever and never leave each other's side Lets grow old lets live long till we die I cry Chorus: You lift me up when I fall down You're so beautiful You are my doll I want to hold you, kiss you and never let you go I need you so I just know Hook: When morning rise I want to see your face You give me peace and you are my grace When the sun sets I know you're still there I care for you It's what we share Verse 3: Let us make memories and lets us be friends Let sail the seas to the very end It is to good to be so true for that I knew I do guess, you're my clue You are a breath of fresh air No matter what you bare As I stare in to your eyes My life never wears Chorus [x2]: You lift me up when I fall down You're so beautiful You are my doll I want to hold you, kiss you and never let you go I need you so I just know